To Wildflowers

And what protection can the gardener afford this rose from the harsh elements of change?
Patience, care, and a little warmth from the sun are our best hope, your Majesty.
— A Little Chaos

Today, I’m going slightly off-brand.

I’ve only just started blogging again after not feeling inspired to do so for a long and dark period of time. During my hiatus, I wondered what kind of valuable advice could I be giving out to my readers and who am I to be qualified? There were so many more well-travelled and well-established travel bloggers out there. Was I merely a delusional self-promoter?

What I didn’t understand until recently were that these thought patterns stemmed from self-doubt and hesitation. I was disintegrating and lost not only my confidence but also my passion for writing. My inner demons kept me small, and I believed them. I was living my dream and yet, I couldn’t feel proud of my successes. I second-guessed everything I did and that lent itself to so much self-doubt. Nothing that I could do would convince me otherwise.

During this time, I still continued to travel but I didn’t feel like I had anything to offer to anyone. I had only just begun to pick up the proverbial pen again after surrounding myself by strong people who were go-getters and feeling inspired by them. That, plus some life coaching podcasts to remind me that I always need to fight my own corner and always argue for my successes. I had so much evidence to prove that I am capable but I struggled to believe it.

To those in my life, I was definitely not the best company. And those who wanted to be a part of mine, I just couldn’t let in. I didn’t feel like I deserved anything good. But how terribly wrong this feeling is!

So, I want to dedicate this post to myself and to all of you who continue to struggle to be your best friend, cheerleader, linebacker. I’m sure you all arrive at my blog for various reasons, whether you are a friend, a relative, a fellow traveller or you just stumbled on by accident. What matters is, you are reading this, and you are amazing, strong and resilient. Your vulnerability and curiosity make you beautiful. You are enough.